They choose feelings of anger
because it’s easier than feeling small.
Why sit feeling defenseless,
when they can instead feel scary and tall?
People feel anger like sharks
feel blood in the water. In a frenzy.
Seeing red and hearing less,
they can smell it from a mile away.
Maybe I find these people
Exhausting because I know them too well
or maybe it is because
Family is a set of expectations
Arbitrarily set rolls
that have developed through several decades
God forbid we readjust
God forbid we analyze anything
It’s a persistant battle
to claim an imaginary birthright
Hard-ass straight shooter versus
“Kind,” whimsical, idealistic dreamer
Despite the kindess displayed
Being surface level and self-serving
Hard-ass has written for years,
mentioned it, but no one cared to listen.
I wonder why he doesnt dream.
He was never given that luxury
commodified and expected out right
Go against the written script
and you’re the stubborn, obstinate asshole
But the dreamer gets his way
by complaining and leveraging his whine.
I was told to “get a grip”
And dealt with it. I guess I turned out fine.
I read the other day
92% of people think
they’re much more moral
than most other people.
Do you think they just gloss over
all their minor transgressions
and minor suggestions
they received on how to be nicer?
All I know is I can’t monitor my tone,
and I should probably get better
at picking up the phone,
and I should definitely roll my eyes less.
So many little lessons
I’m so bad at implementation,
but at least now nightly water glasses
don’t crowd either of our nightstands.
I think I started this poem
as some form of self-validation
like thinking I’m worse
somehow makes me better.
At least I remember what
and how it relates
to my conscience.
92% of the time,
I think I’m much worse than I am,
but I really can’t tell
if that puts me with 8% of people.
You’ll never do everything
you know you could if you tried. You can try,
but not all at the same time.
Expectations aren’t in reality.
There are two types of people
who are unconcerned with morality:
The unashamed. The boring.
The rest sit hoping their souls are aligned.
If you constantly focus
on how you could be better, you miss out
on how good you really are.
Self-appreciation runs all courses.
Are we just treading water
for the privilege of continuing
to tread water ’till we can’t?
My arms and legs are getting so tired.